Re-assessing My Resolutions, For 2018.

We start every year with a blueprint in hand, resolutions we drafted out hoping that a year later, we’ll be exactly that, scoring high on achievements and ticking bucket list items off the list. Truthfully, resolutions often fail – mine does. It might be because we focused on starting the year right more so than ending it right. Or maybe whatever motivation and drive we had at the start was depleted along the way, leaving none to boost the final lap of the run. Or maybe we doze off in the middle of the long year marathon, waking up near the finishing line and then realizing we don’t have time to achieve all that, and then leaving those goals from the previous year for the next year to come (If we remember what they were). Recycling goals, another way to put it.

Nonetheless, writing down resolutions does come useful, I often believe so. Coming up with resolutions and writing them down increases the probability of actually doing them. We are more likely to attempt to achieve goals when we put them down to pen and paper, in black and white. I found that reviewing goals at the end of the year is particularly helpful going forward. From where you had started, to where you were at the end of the year, towards where you want to be, keeping track of all of them will give you a better idea on the pace you’re going at, and the amount of effort you’re putting in. It is perfectly okay to abandon a goal if you no longer feel excited about it, however long you had worked on it. The kind of goals you’re setting for yourself, you want those that will keep you up at night and pull you off the bed in the morning. Those that will constantly take your breath away, fill your heart with nervousness and excitement just thinking about doing them, and finally feeling so much alive when doing them. It doesn’t matter even if they don’t stay the same.

I had a list written and chucked somewhere titled ‘Resolutions of 2018’, once written with exhilaration, now looking torn and tattered like it had been through tough times. Tough times, this year, yeah totally I get you.

The first line reads: “If you stand for nothing, then what do you fall for?”

And then the words ‘Resolutions for 2018’ stood larger and bolder than all others. And the short list starts:

  1. Get a real job after graduation. *****
  2. Journalling (To maintain a daily journal, into the third year. Best decision to start in 2016, not stopping any sooner!)
  3. Work out consistently, at least 3 days per week.
  4. Complete and obtain the certificate for the course I’m working on.
  5. Read 40 books

Overall, I had an eventful year, accomplishing most of those written down. In particular, I had a taste of ‘adulthood’, finally obtaining an official job and coming home exhausted every day after. A far cry from expectations I’ve now realized. Still, because of this opportunity, it opened up my world to so much more – new friends and colleagues, fresh challenges, hands-on experiences, and the kind of knowledge that textbooks never could have taught.

I had so much fun with journalling and writing down life’s journey. From one journal, I expanded to a number of them, specializing in different areas of my life. ‘Posts’ for pictures; ‘Books’, on a list of books to read, and also those already read; ‘Workout Journal’ to track exercises, ‘Quotes’ for saving up a library of motivating thoughts and sayings, and also ‘The Daily Archive’ for daily journaling. I have a few other journals as well, mostly for the likes of mine but nonetheless redundant, I keep all of them updated mostly in the mornings while commuting, and also at nights just moments before I sleep. (I use Day One App for all that.)

Listening to my body, I consistently clocked in workouts depending on how I was feeling on that day. Sometimes I’m running, sometimes I’m hula hooping, other times I’m enjoying a short session of relaxing yoga. It was much easier getting workouts done this way. Not every session needs to be tough and sweaty, and not every session needs to get you muscle ache the next day. You do it, for your body, your way.

I’ve completed the foundations of the course I’ve started, thereby receiving the certificate but that was just the beginning steps. Going forward, there’ll be more papers to clear, more to learn, more to delve deeper into. That’ll be built upon in the coming years.

Reading 40 books within this year was a goal that was thinly stretched. Last year, i barely hovered at 20. I was overly ambitious setting this goal, and actually starting out really well in the first month, but then the numbers dwindled especially after i started working. I failed miserably on this resolution this year, somehow aiming for the moon and not landing amongst the stars, but that won’t be the last of it. I’ll try again next year.

“For what it’s worth, it’s never too late to be whoever you want to be. I hope you live a life you’re proud of and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start over.” – F. Scott Fitzgerald

That was my resolution of 2018 and what I’ve come to accomplished. How was your year and what will you want to achieve in 2019?

Thank you for reading. (: